today i went to take a tour of the aveda institute with interest of attending the school. now i have even more than interest. im actually signed up and accepted. I was able to obtain full coverage financial aid because my mom is a single mom. and tomorrow my mother is giving me my 150$ so i can get my diploma. im so exciteddd. im basically enrolled in aveda. all i need is the diploma. oh golly goshhh. the school is absolutely amazingly breathtaking. the people that work there are so cool and nice. i knew from the minute i walked in i would be able to attend because as soon as I walked in my favorite xiu xiu song [crank heart] began to play. im going to have a fun college experience. i feel really sorry for those who wont be able to experience the experience im about to experience. its going to be one hell of a ride. to top my wonderful day off, friday is tomorrow. which means i get to see nicholassss. ive been waiting for my success to start up.... and it did within a matter of two days.
im going to stop. wouldn't want to jynx this beautiful dayyy.
you came at the right point in my life. i would have no clue what i would do without you. someone thatloves me for who i am no matter what. i love you nicholasssssss. so much. friday is near.
i wish i knew what went on inside that head of yours. you rarely ever talk to me anymore and you ignore me at times. I just dont feel like we're as good of friends as we used to be. maybe im crazy..I dont know. another crazy feeling again. I wish you could tell me whats really on your mind. even when its something negative about me. because id like to understand you.
my biological mother that is. I just discovered i had warrents for my arrest out. it's amazing since my mom was supposed to take care of them for me. I know i did the crime, however, she promised me she would take care of the fines and drive me to get my community service. instead when I have the warrents, I call and ask her if shes holding her end up on the bargain and she tells me to have my GOD MOTHER do so. IM SO MAD I CANT EVEN WRITE WITHOUT A RUN ON SENTENCE. ugh. i wouldnt be angry if she wouldnt have promised me this severely important life changing thing and then just dump it like its nothing. at least i have someone in my life right now. someone i can talk to. someone whos nice to me 24/7. someone i dont feel i have to impress. someone who i know for sure gives a damn about how I feel. i cant wait for school to be out. then maybe the skin wont be as tight on my chest. until then i sit here and rot. how can i live for the moment when there basically is no moment for me. I cant just for get out the things life dumps on me. dear god, it's brock... prove my beliefs wrong and turn my life around. and that means take care of the things that hold me down. NOT take away the things that I love and cherrish the most like you always have.
my best friend is having a baby. I get my tattoo finished tomorrow [tuesday] since it was just an outline. this past weekend sucked for real but oh well. candyesque.
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